Sitting in a room. Tears drip, drip, drip. Dripping down the cheeks.
Rewind. Memories flood back
Anger. Clenching teeth. Shadow boxing. Grind teeth. Heavy breathing. Fight, fight, fight. Stand strong, be strong. Don’t show, you are falling. Don’t show how you feel. Do not feel, do not feel, do not feel.
Powerlessness.
Anger and sadness. Two sides of the same coin. Time to Spin the Sides, Bring Sadness to the Light.
STOP!
It’s been nearly 40 years in, half of a lived life. Strengths gone. Soul is sore. Sadness beneath breaks through like a bursting river.
Overwhelming.
STOP!
It’s too much, too much.
Consequence.
The Cycle Starts.
Depression. Breakthrough. Depression. Breakthrough. Depression.
Can I get rid of the sadness like I did the anger?
